Can't Take My Eyes Off You

Too good to be true. That's how my second relationship started. I met him through common friends again. It was my friend and his friend that should end up together but it was magic that it came to be us. We jived because of this song, "Can't Take My Eyes Off You". That started it all. We shared stories and enjoyed each others company. I thought again that this was it. I found the right one.

Naive as I was. It ended up on the wrong side again. It was funny that our relationship survived for several months all because of a lie. He hid so many things from me. Made up stories to impress me but God lead the way for me to see things clearly. That I was deceived by this man. I kept the relationship after he made his confessions. I forgave him and continued whatever we have started. We had fun times together. He made extra efforts to win my trust back. Maybe it was not enough because one day I just woke up and told myself that I should end this. I should make a stand that he was not meant for me. That our relationship was a mistake.

On the same day, we met. He told me about his ex-girlfriend whom he got pregnant. I listened and comforted him but not to his knowledge that I was going to break up with him. When he was done talking I just said to him..."Go back to her and have a good life. I can't stay here anymore. I'm tired".

That was the last day when I saw him. We had off and on communication before but all was hi's and hello's nothing more to it. It was just recently when we were able to talk again. Talked about what happened and learned that he did end up with his ex-girlfriend and now his wife. I was just saddened because he was not changed at all. Same old James. Pretending to be okay and making up stories again. It was funny because he thought that I believed him. For heaven's sake...I know the truth...

Whatever it was and whatever happened still we ended up as good friends. Laughing about the past. I'm glad as well to know that he did love me only that I didn't fight for our love. I gave up. That was because I was tired and fed up. He cried when I left because he thought that I'll be staying for keeps. Sorry but I was not the woman who can give this back to him.

Note to James:

Boss,

It was a fun experience having you as a part of me. I was hurt but you were forgiven. I have moved on but I am still hoping and praying that you do the same. Not that I meant move on from our past but move on and be real.

Your family loves you and your kids respect you. Live it at that. Be good and  be loyal. Don't do anything to hurt them. I'm still a friend you know that.

Be strong.